Saturday, May 23, 2015
When Your Best Is Not Good Enough
Have you ever given the best you can, and something or someone important to you still falls apart? I have, and to this day, am not clear on what is supposed to be learned from it.
As a youngster, I kept failing in math-related subjects, and didn't learn until age 43 years, that it was because of Dyslexia. Instead, the school labeled me "RETARDED!"
At around nine years of age, I became a primary medical caretaker of seriously ill family members. As the eldest female, this was my job. Although I didn't ask for thanks, it still was never ever given to me for doing such hard and scary medical tasks. As a result, it made me feel inadequate, even though my very best was put into caring for them. This left an emotional scar.
As a very young adult, I became an entertainer. Always giving the best possible performance, yet my bandleader would never say I did well. Only when this person was near death, did he tell me I was the best band-member he ever had. Why the hell did he have to wait so long!
In my heart, I tried. The many loved ones I cared for, did not give me the credit for doing my best. Why? Do you have things to teach us all with your life experiences? Please share? I just did.
Dr. RubyNorma Yanez, CH.t
Peace be with you, RubyNorma.
What a pretty woman in those photos! J
Again, sorry for your pain.
Clara in FL
A former patient of yours from many years ago. Dr. J.